I won't melt away

American Apparel Teeth

Silly Humans

Often I  ponder about what was intended for ancient man- what was supposed to happen, what were we supposed to do?

I also sometimes like to zoom out on myself, almost like I'm meditating. 

It of course makes everything smaller, stupider. Even thinks I admire most when I'm here on Earth like incredible literary knowledge and talent. I think about how odd speaking is, music is: making noises, how can one be better than another? 

Tattoos of Ships

It's funny how many people give a crap.

Just when you think no one does.

Makes you have to keep going- whether you want to or not.

Goodnight, frustration.

As I lay here next to my mother who is making cute noises as she breathes, I realize that I only ever write at night.  For some reason, although I am better at paying attention to subjects like math, and better at paying attention to reading a book while I'm awake in the morning, my head is much more calm- though not exactly clear at night. Most of the time, I feel like I want to washout my brain with mint shampoo and rinse it so my thoughts seem lucid or even sane. But no matter how much I don't want it to be- it's usually pretty murky. 

Although I have felt like I've been less productive, I'm starting to think that this whole "spending time on me" thing may turn out to have positive effects, but I guess we'll see. For now, resting is what I should do "for me", so I will.

Goodnight moon.

The First Day of School

Doctors' office secretaries are always slamming the slamming the sliding plastic partition shut as if some of our illness or injury will somehow find its way through and onto their frenchfries. Today was not the best of days, not only because I hate regression and this whole situation is one big regression and each little regression seems to just tap me over the edge of sanity for a few hours like in a game of break the ice, but also because I hate novocaine and the big puffy but frozen tingly numbness it leaves behind.

Lately, I feel like I've become a couch potato. What a dreadful thing to become-how upsetting it is to binge on television and get sucked into the computer, wasting my life away- especially now. There's nothing worse than looking at the clock to find its now three hours later even though you only intended to check your email and get things sorted out before tackling your todo list. Scribbling some pathetic answers on how-do-you-feel-about-this-and-that-worksheets was the only thing I could do to make myself feel a little bit better about watching an episode of Hung, one of Weeds, and ending with Madmen. OnDemand has become my new comfort food.

Here's hoping I'll wake up on the right side tomorrow.

Pumped about lyfe

Getting really psyched about my vegan/vegetarian club at school. Would also love to expand it to the community as well. This morning I went to the club fair, set up my poster, literature, looped a movie on the good ol' MacBook, and forced people to try my mixed berry cupcakes with cream cheese icing (vegan of course, dummies). Never knew it would be so hard to convince people to take free food.

Anyways, after filling a page with names and emails, I came home and began a list of recommended websites and literature for anyone interested in becoming vegan or any curious cats out there. Don't know if anyone will ever see this or if anyone cares but here it goes:

LITERATURE!

Vegan: The New Ethics of Eating, Revised Edition
Erik Marcus
One of the first books I read about veganism- explains the vegan lifestyle from all angles, answers almost EVERY question you can have.

Animal Liberation
Peter Singer
What can I say- The dude roooolz. He started this movement in the '70s and like Zeppelin, it still rocks.

The Dietitian's Guide to Vegetarian Diets
Messina, Mark, and Virginia Messina
Everything you need to know from the health and wellness standpoint. Also probably the book your parents will be most interested in.

Fast Food Nation
Eric Schlosser
Basically "What goes on before they call your number." The icky, sticky truth.

Living Among Meat Eaters 
Carol Adams
Let's face it- they've got us surrounded!



INTERWEBZ!

http://www.vegetariantimes.com/  Subscribing to the magazine is not a bad idea. I have a lot of fun and have learned much from reading it.
http://www.theppk.com POST PUNK KITCHEN! You can see I'm excited. It's at the top of my bookmarks list; the chick who runs the site have also written many of my favorite cookbooks (Vegan Cupcakes Take Over The World, Veganomicon, Vegan with a Vengence, etc.) To put it plainly, I would give up peanut butter for a week to hang out with Isa Chandra Moskowitz for a little while- and that's saying a lot.
http://www.vegan.org/Vegan Action's campaigns have made life a lot smoother for many vegans- also a great site for more resources! Check it out.

That list should start you off, anyone out there.